Well well, i don't know how to feel. I don't really want to talk about this but i'm very very very worried about Steve. He might have some serious liver problems but we won't know anything precise about it until his doctor gets his analysis results back (which will probably be after Christmas).
I feel like a wreck but i'm trying to be strong. Especially for him. I just hope it's nothing serious with all my heart. I'm trying so hard not to cry...i'm trying to be as positive as i can. It just won't be a 100% happy Christmas this year. All the worries i try to hide will still be there in a little corner of my heart. & it's just so hard to get a decent sleep these days...& when i do get to fall asleep my nights are haunted by terrible nghtmares.
On a lighter note, i'm pretty happy with the presents i got for my family. I hope they will like them! I always have the impression i never do enough for the ones that i love. I'm so curious about the present my sister got me hehehe! I got her a big big book/album about the movie "Amelie"! I'm sure she'll love it!
Does any of you know how Chanel (pillfetish
) is doing? I really miss her & her amazing words! I hope she's doing fine! She's totally disappeared!
Today is cold and gray but it perfecly fits my mood. My apple&cinnamon candle is burning & everything's quiet. Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day...i have to finish wrapping all the presents, i have to help my mom clean the house and make brownies! I made almond cookies for the first time a few days ago & they came out very very good! Everybody loved them! I'm so proud of myself because i actually changed the original recipe adding my personal touch and they tasted great!
Well, i have to go now but i want to wish you all a fabulous Christmas full of love and happy moments! Thank you for all the love and support you always give me! It means so much to me! More than you can imagine! & happy birthday to Sammi